I Don't Feel Like a Full Fledged Member...

I'd like a little compassion from the inside please. I've often had this tendency to say, "I'll get it together soon but for now I'll..." and then take another hit. Hit. This has resulted in rough play from my brain. I think my brain is just trying to let my little voice, the kid inside, get his day in the sun, but it lays down the hurt pretty bad. little compassion please.